Sunday, July 18, 2010

I Miss(ed) June...

This title has 2 meanings to me. First of all, June (the month) just seemed to fly by...and I will get to everything that me and the kiddos went through a bit later.

First I need to get to the next major tragedy that happened in our lives. My Mama (my mom's mother) passed away this June very quickly after a brief battle with cancer. On a side note, her name is also June...hence the second meaning to my blog title.

We found out just after Mother's Day that she had brain cancer, after going in to get more diagnostic testing, we found that she also had Stage 4 (the last stage) lung cancer. So my mom, Mama and Kong Kong (my mom's father) quickly flew down to Vancouver for almost 4 weeks to undergo radiation treatment. While they were down in Vancouver, the did some bone scans and found that she also had bone cancer in her back and hips.They flew home on a Tuesday afternoon, and early Thursday morning, just after I had helped her reposition in bed to be more comfortable, she stopped breathing and passed away. I performed CPR on her for 5 minutes before the paramedics came and worked on her for another 20 minutes. Just when they were going to call it in, they found a very tenous heart beat...but she didn't last the ride to the hospital.
I just happened so quickly...but in a way, I'm glad that it did. Although I am SO grateful that my kiddos and I were able to spend these last few months with her...she was not the Mama that I once knew. She has always been this fiesty, on the move woman...and these past months were so hard to watch as she deteriorated so quickly. I'm so glad that I was there for her in her last days and moments to help her be more comfortable, I just wish that I could have done more.

June Sek Kiam Tseng January 26, 1926- June 17, 2010
You will be dearly missed.
Everyone, except Darren and Auria (who are in China) came home for her services. We all had a great time reminiscing about Mama, we had amazing food and despite the sad occasion, we had a lot of laughs. I think that we, as a family, became stronger and closer that weekend.

As for the rest of June, the Pumpkin and Monkey finished their school year. And despite only being there for half the school year, Pumpkin won the Principle's Award for the Best All Around Grade 3 Student...isn't that awesome?!

She also participated in the Track & Field day at Massey Place Stadium (man, did being there for a track & field event ever bring back some memories for me!). Monkey was very proud of his big sister and how awesome she did.

The kiddos also finished off their soccer games for the summer, much to Sweet Pea's excitement (she enjoyed soccer about as much as she enjoyed it last year). But, unfortunately, they have 3-4 more games when they return for school.

So, I think that I'm ready to let everyone in on what's been happening in my life. I told you all earlier that my husband of almost 10 years decided that he needed time apart from us, and that I decided to move back to Canada because of it. I spent at least 2 months depressed...I wasn't able to do anything other than get the kids to school and pick them up. It was sometime around mid-March that I realized that I didn't want to wait around for him anymore, and that he wasn't the person that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with. I thought about it long and hard, and I realized that there was no way that I could trust or love him wholeheartedly again, how was I ever going to trust that he wouldn't just up and walk away from us again when things got tough. And I decided to move forward, not on...I just needed to start living again. So it was tough, but I got out playing basketball again, and started going out with my sisters and hanging out with my friends. And I realized that life up in good ole Prince George was just as awesome as it always was...I just needed to change my mindset.

So I told Mike in April that I wanted a divorce. It hasn't happened yet, but at least it's been put out there...unfortunately, Mike has realized that he made a terrible mistake and is trying to fight for us. But it's way too little, way too late.

I have since met someone new and amazing and perfect for me. He makes me smile, helps me put things in perspective, worries about my well-being and how everything affects my family and most importantly makes my heart happy. From the beginning things between us have just been so natural and easy. Now don't get me wrong...things aren't perfect, and we are still figuring a lot of stuff out...but I can't wait to figure things out together, and I'm excited to have him in my life. So, to all my readers out is the new man in my Rich.
So that's about it for June...I'll be back soon to update everyone on what's been going on in July with our family.